It's through the writhing that I learn It's the wails and laments that open my eyes It's the pain that tears through me The tears that I cry The begging and pleading The prayers that go high The worries, the frets The confession of sin The heartfelt cries Yes...through the anguished din This is how I learn How I grow How I feel How I know That I'm His I'm human I can't not cry I can't not fret I can't not sin I can't be perfect I can't be what you'd expect I'm a christian forgiven God's not through with me yet forgiven for my weakness forgiven for my failure to stand I'm not strong within myself I can only hold His hand Finally I realize defeat Finally I realize my loss Finally I realize I can do nothing Finally I put it all before the Cross I pray a fertive prayer I give it all to Him I kneel in humble correction I don't feel a thing I've put my hand in His I Praise Him anyways I walk without expecting I just pray for strength To accept whatever He decides His will is best I know this with all my heart But my will is strong This was my enemy from the start Through it all I've learned Just how awesome is my God He loves me anyways Through my tears I Praise Him Tears not of temper But of gratitude Gratitude for His undying, unwavering, unconditional, forgiving, eternal love for one so undeserving as I Mary Silva June, 2004 John 3:17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. The oval picture of Christ can be found in: