Sherridan barely glanced at her friend Renee as she struggled to lock her suitcase.
"What does it look like I'm doing? I've got to get out of here," the strain in her voice was evident.
Renee crossed the room and pushed down on the suitcase.
"Try now. I thought you were going to just take a few days off. You've packed enough here for an extended European vacation."
Sherridan glared at her. 'Renee...please." She was immediately sorry for her tone and softened her voice.
"Rennie, I think I'm losing my mind!. I dont know if its the pressure of the deadlines, the city, no real life, no man. Gawd! For all I know its the fruit loops in a cereal box & I'm one of them! "
Sherridan turned toward the window. She shook her head, faced best buddy and motioned to her .
"Okay,what do you see out there? Tell me. describe what you see in detail."
"Cars,buses, people. lots of cell phones," she laughed and continued," a club kid with spiked green hair! Sherridan?"
"Alright, I will tell you what I see. I see horse drawn carriages. I see men in top hats. I see women in long skirts. I'm standing here with you in this room in the 21st century, while its the 19th century outside!"
Ren studied the tall, cool blonde, who contrasted her own dark looks, and had been the closest she had ever come to having a sister, or any family for that matter. Sherridan the rational one, the logical & sensible one was now scaring the hell out of her.
"It comes and goes. Oh, at first it was just like a peripheral vision thing, and fleetting. Then blurry...shimmery. About a month ago the scenes began to solidify. I chalked it off to a vivid imagination. escapism, maybe. Until two days ago.
I wasnt just watching the panorama anymore.
"I had just crossed the street and narrowly missed being hit by a car. I stumbled over the curb and dropped all my books. I stooped down to gather them up and when I stood up everything had changed! Everything Renee! the skyscrapers were gone! Gone! They were replaced by small shops, a livery stable, cobblestone streets! Rennie! My clothes! The clothes I was wearing had even changed!"
A tear flowed from her eye and slipped down her cheek. " I'm losing it!"
Renee sank down to the floor and put her arm around Sherridan who had crumbled into a sobbing heap.
"It will be ok," she soothed.
"No! More! Much more! A man. A man. He approached me. He said, "Why did you run off. You promised to help me, Virginia."
"Virginia?" Renee asked.
"I said I didn't know him. He laughed! He ripped a locket from my neck. He opened it and thrust it at me! There was a picture of us in the locket. He pulled me to him and whispered into my hair, "Do you not recognize your own fiance, Virginia my love. I do not know what has gotten into you but I demand you cease this play acting!"
"Geeeze Louise, girlfriend!"
"I pulled away and tried to run! My shoes got caught in my long skirt and I fell. When I got back to my feet I was just standing back on the sidewalk again; cars whizzing by, girls in shorts and Reebocks jogging, a guy on a Harley..." Her voice trailed off.
"Sherr you have to see someone! You can't leave. you can't be alone and I can't leave my job at the firm. You're having ,I don't know what! Flashbacks, no! Its a deja vu! No, gene memories ! Oh I don't know! but I'm not letting you leave to go off somewhere alone! Do you hear me?"
"I'm not going to see a shrink! You can just forget it!"
"Okay! Alright! No Shrink! A psychic!"
"Oh great, Renee! I'm nuts and you're crazy!
"'No! No! Listen. They help people! Past lives! That's it! It must be. I know you! You're more sane and down to earth than anyone, including me!"
Sherridan couldn't help but to start laughing.
"I'm going bananas and you want me to see a psychic! Rennie! Why don't we just drag out your ouija board! Where are your tarot cards! Cheaper than a psychic!. Maybe let's toss some chicken bones and read them! Better yet. why don't I just swing a chicken around my head!"
"Do you Have a better idea," asked Renee.
Sherridan looked at her and said....
~ Author Witchy Way ~
"No, no I don't have a better idea at the moment—all I know is I miss him and I don't know where these thoughts and visions are coming from." Sherridan said as she tugged at the sleeves on her sweater while wiping the tears from her eyes. She knew she needed to come to terms with her past if she was ever going to be able to move on with her life. She tried so hard not to focus on what happened 3 years ago but she often found herself thinking about it.
Sherridan walked across the living room and stared out the window. "Renee I know what I saw and what I heard. I think someone or something is trying to tell me things through all these visions I have been having." Sherridan started feeling faint as she leaned against the wall and as much as she tried to keep her legs from buckling she could not help it and slid to the floor in a sea of tears and crying out, "No, I don't want to think about it! No, not again!"
Renee's footsteps could be heard as she ran across the room to Sherridan. Leaning down she placed one arm around Sherridan and with her other hand she pushed the hair out of Sherridan's eyes and off her forehead. Renee exclaimed out loud, "Not again Sherridan! I thought these nightmares of yours were over!" Watching as Sherridan closed her eyes, Renee shook with fear, as she knew what Sherridan was about to go through.
It has been 3 years since the accident but it seems just like yesterday that Adam was taken away from her. Remembering those last days made Sherridan sad as she was reminded that things could have been so much better between them. She thought back to the fight that had occurred that night and how Adam had angrily slammed the front door before he jumped into his car and speed off in the darkness. She can remember seeing the taillights turn out of the driveway and down the street and that was the last time she saw him alive. Tears stung her eyes as she remembered the anger and hurt she saw in his eyes as he left their house for the last time.
"Sherridan! Sherridan can you hear me? Are you okay?" Renee asked as she leaned down placing a blanket around Sherridan's shoulders. Sherridan, hands shaking, carefully accepted the cup of hot tea that Renee offered her.
She sipped it slowly as Renee reminded her that what had happened with Adam was in the past and there was nothing she could do about it. Pulling the blanket over her shoulders, Sherridan said, "I know it is in the past but I have so many regrets." She hesitated a moment before continuing, "I feel guilty about how things were between us Renee. I didn't make the most of the time we had together. There are so many things I should have done differently".
"I know you have been through so much Sherridan. That was a traumatic time for you", whispered Renee.
"Yes it was", Sherridan whispered," and after all this time I think I am still having a hard time accepting his death. I know I need to move on with my life and that is what he would have wanted, but I have so many unanswered questions that only he can answer." Sherridan sighed and picked up the cup of hot tea. She sat there for a minute and let the hot liquid coat her dry throat. Her thoughts went back to the vision she had about that man calling her Virginia and referring to her as his fiancé. What was it about that vision that kept bothering her? There was something about that vision—what was it? A shriek left Sherridan's throat as she started trembling and shaking. Her shaky hands dropped the cup she was holding and hot tea splattered everywhere.
"Sherridan! Sherridan! Are you okay? What is going on? Talk to me please!" cried out Renee as she grabbed the blanket and attempted to clean up the tea that had been splattered everywhere.
Slowly Sherridan glanced over at Renee, and in a voice barely above a whisper said, " I think I know."
Renee shocked and unsure what Sherridan was about to say, asked in a low voice, "You know about what?"
"Those visions I have been having Renee. I think I might be able to understand why I have been having them" whispered Sherridan.
Renee, listening closely to every word her friend spoke, told her," Talk to me Sherridan. Why do you think this is happening to you? If you want me to help you –you have to tell me!"
Sherridan pulled her legs in close to her and hugged her knees with her arms. With tears slowly coming out of her eyes she slowly turned to Renee and said------
~ Author Shannon ~
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